As I was walking with my young teen beauty, through our grassy field, in our own backyard, I paused. I recognized the place I stood. Remembering, I looked ahead and looked behind. “I had a dream a couple of days ago,” I began to share with my daughter. “A dream that someone was building a road through our land, right next to my writing cottage. It was being built through the woods.”
In the dream, I knew our land was not the destination. The road was to be used to get from one place to another. In the dream, I wasn’t afraid of the intrusion, I just wondered and watched.
“Oh, no! That is not ever happening,” My daughter was adamant. “This is our property. We own this land. This is our house. No one is coming here, and especially not building a road through it.”
“Of course not,” I smiled as we continued our walk.
It was only a short while ago, resolutely, I took the same stand. Fearful, possessive and protectant, closed-in, and wanting to keep everyone else out. I was the guardian of my own heart, and I was alone in a dark prison of my own making.
God whispered in that moment. “That’s not My way. What if I want to build a road in your life? What if I want others who have lost their way to use that road? What if I want to use your life to help others find their way? It means you have to let Me. Then, not be afraid to let others in. I take your place as Guardian of your soul.”
A road in? A roadway in the wilderness, where no road should be and He’s the Road-maker. And maybe, just maybe, that hard way where trails were blazed through testings by fire, weren’t just for me to walk through. Just maybe they are to help someone else walk through, too.
I know what He means. “Keep open house. Be generous with your lives.” (Matt 5:15 MSG) He’s been teaching me this lesson, long. He doesn’t force His way in, He waits to be invited in. Then Him coming in means opening a way to let others in, and for us to come out. Out of hiding. Out of darkness where we think we are safe. His way is perfect. His way is love. And His love perfect, coming in, means driving fear out. (1 John 4:18)
“But by opening up with others, we prompt other’s to open up with God” (Matt 5:16 MSG) This is the beginning of true authenticity and transparency with a holy purpose. “For if we walk in the Light as He is in the Light we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus cleanses us.” (1 John 1:7)
So this — this blogging, this soul labor of writing true — this is me keeping open house. I am allowing the road to be built through my life. I share my struggles, my trials, and my triumphs, and how I’m finding the way. My life isn’t the way. Jesus is the Way. I let this light shine, and hope it be a beacon for those who have lost their way. And we journey together.