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PhotobucketGod knows the deep places of woman; He created them. But He still invites us to enter in and share them with Him, freely.

When we open the raw, He presses mercy into the pain; the failure; the shame. He doesn’t want us to stay there. He wants to heal us and free us so we can live for Him. He created woman with longing and desire, but often these are wasted on the wrong things; in the wrong places.

After the fall, God said woman’s desire would be for her husband (Genesis 3:16), and while that might be true to an extent, having the redemption of Jesus has changed that.

I remember while I was dating my [now] husband and even in the early years of our marriage, I depended on Him for everything. Even things he just wasn’t capable of providing; that deep desire for constant connection.

I would get upset if he wasn’t with me as often as possible. He couldn’t fill the deep places because they weren’t his to fill.

He simply wasn’t capable of such a constant need in my life. That desire was only something God could fill.

Likewise, other things cannot replace the deep desire for God that we have. Our soul longs for the nurture of our Maker and nothing else will satisfy. Nothing can penetrate that deep place the way the Father can.

Sometimes we don’t even know what it is we need.

When I feel conflicted, I write. In my journal, I write in the raw and it’s there that I dig deep enough to find what it is my soul longs for, and I always find myself in the same place: Jesus. That paths may look different, the needs may vary, but the answer is always the same.

How do you lose yourself in God?

You chase hard after God. Hard. You’ll know what hard means when people start saying things like, “Now, don’t get too crazy about this ‘Jesus thing'”.

Your life will permeate Him and your face will shine His light. People won’t understand the decisions you are making because they are based on the things of God; on the eternal, and not on the ways of man or the things of this world.

Lose yourself in God. Go to the deep places where desire is only fulfilled by meeting with Him. It is there that you will find yourself. Maybe that sounds cliche’. It’s only cliche’ if we speak truth without living truth.

I encourage you, today, make time to go to that place with God.

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  2. Christin — Whenever I read your writing, I think, “me too! me too!” (Frequently I haven’t checked who wrote it but think to myself “This has to be Christin!” very quickly!) Today’s second paragraph especially speaks to me.

    About a decade ago, after 13 miserable years of marriage, I became desperate enough to seek God’s guidance. The first thing He showed me was that I expected far too much of Daniel. I expected him to rescue me from every difficult life blow. To save me from myself. To be my savior. THAT was a wake-up call. When I started taking my needs to God, the pressure of “being god” came off Daniel, and our marriage started to improve.

    LOVE your ending. So true! Thank you for blessing me today!

  4. Ah yes, I have found my journal is my best outlet for when I get all angsty. God helps me work through it all, brings me back to truth, and then i can come back out. It’s like my time out. LOL

  5. oh my GOODNESS! how I needed this today!  I am participating in a blog hop that has me sharing my redemption story…it’s been raw and I feel exposed..and yesterday one spiritual attack came after another..till finally I stood in my kitchen and actually hollared out loud, SATAN get behind me!  Jesus bind him!  Then..without fail..my day turned around.  The darkness seemed to leave my sight…Anyone not a believer reading this would say “she’s crazy”..and yes, maybe so..but I am absolutely crazy in love with my Savior.  The lies are NOT from him…the deception…NOT from him…He is the goodness, the peace..the ever flowing fount of all things wonderful…HE is who I choose to listen to..
    Thank you thank you thank you for the gentle reminder!
     

  6. Oh, I LOVE your definition of chasing after Him hard.  That’s it.  You called it.  It’s nice to be around those who understand.  : )   Great post.

  7. It’s an amazing quote that you have below the picture.  Thank you for your words today.  They really resonate with me.  I relate to wanting my husband to be my everything, and being crushed when he disappoints me.  You’re right–only God can do that.  I also like what you said about people not understanding decisions we make.  I’ve been there too, and your words shine some light on that experience.  I just saw a quote on Facebook about not getting too crazy about “this Jesus thing”.  It ended by saying something like, “Jesus was pretty crazy about me when He got on that cross.”

  8. ”
    Sometimes we don’t even know what it is we need.” Ha! So true! It’s like staring into the refrigerator knowing we want something but not sure what it is. And we keep going back to that refrigerator hoping something new will show up. Thanks for the reminder that I need to step away from the “refrigerator” and step closer to Jesus. 🙂

  10. wonderful post, Christin…yes, if we go to God with our deep desires, which He put in us, and which only He can fill, He does meet us there…sometimes, I have learned I need to persevere in seeking Him…He does meet me but sometimes I don’t sense Him immediately…

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