When we open the raw, He presses mercy into the pain; the failure; the shame. He doesn’t want us to stay there. He wants to heal us and free us so we can live for Him. He created woman with longing and desire, but often these are wasted on the wrong things; in the wrong places.
After the fall, God said woman’s desire would be for her husband (Genesis 3:16), and while that might be true to an extent, having the redemption of Jesus has changed that.
I remember while I was dating my [now] husband and even in the early years of our marriage, I depended on Him for everything. Even things he just wasn’t capable of providing; that deep desire for constant connection.
I would get upset if he wasn’t with me as often as possible. He couldn’t fill the deep places because they weren’t his to fill.
He simply wasn’t capable of such a constant need in my life. That desire was only something God could fill.
Likewise, other things cannot replace the deep desire for God that we have. Our soul longs for the nurture of our Maker and nothing else will satisfy. Nothing can penetrate that deep place the way the Father can.
Sometimes we don’t even know what it is we need.
When I feel conflicted, I write. In my journal, I write in the raw and it’s there that I dig deep enough to find what it is my soul longs for, and I always find myself in the same place: Jesus. That paths may look different, the needs may vary, but the answer is always the same.
How do you lose yourself in God?
You chase hard after God. Hard. You’ll know what hard means when people start saying things like, “Now, don’t get too crazy about this ‘Jesus thing'”.
Your life will permeate Him and your face will shine His light. People won’t understand the decisions you are making because they are based on the things of God; on the eternal, and not on the ways of man or the things of this world.
Lose yourself in God. Go to the deep places where desire is only fulfilled by meeting with Him. It is there that you will find yourself. Maybe that sounds cliche’. It’s only cliche’ if we speak truth without living truth.
I encourage you, today, make time to go to that place with God.