I have this colorful pile of moleskin journals stacked just about everywhere. By my bed, on my desk, in my purse, in the van and probably in a bag that I have yet to unpack.
I always privately joke that the day I go to live with Jesus, my poor family will have a years worth of work piecing all of my words together as I would scratch them out here and there and then stop. Moving on to the next one.
It is not that I don’t have complete thoughts. Or that I have filled my journals.
I begin writing with a passion and a pulse from heart and as soon as I get paragraphs deep, I stop. And those words never amount to any thing other than scribble on a page.
Because, who will understand? Are my ideas silly, or unwanted? Will I be judged by the place that my words will take me. Should I keep them quiet or press them onto a larger page or platform?
Questions that we might be asking ourselves on repeat.
When you play doubt over and over in your mind, all of your passion will be like withered grass. In the wind.
Doubt will stop you in your tracks and you will change the color of your pen.
In the small of my writing place, where I have gathered my favorite things, and I sit in the middle of paper piles and colored pens, I write and plan and feel led in the calling God has on my life.
But days or late nights have come and gone where my husband has approached me with concern. He can see it before I am aware of the ugly work doubt is having on my life.
I’ve had my hand on the delete key so many times, that I am ashamed to say, I stopped hearing God.
Because stress, deadlines, people and the enemy can press doubt in like no other vice.
I was ready to take down my blog. For good.
I was ready to cancel the Generational Conference. Forever.
I was ready to put my kids in school.
I initially declined my agents request to sign.
Ready to delete all Social Media accounts.
And wishing to throw in the towel on my motherhood, the speaking requests and the book proposal.
Right there, hovering over the delete key for all of the above. And my husband could see that doubt had made its way past the truth and the calling.
Remember the truth about His calling on your life. It will not be easy.
Discard Doubt. Read, Recall, Repeat the truth. It will set you free.
When we delete the very things we were called to do, because doubt has crept into the sacred and holy space that God has called us unto, then we’ve allowed our confidence to be shaken.
Where you have peace and confidence in your calling, doubt cannot run you dry.
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” Ephesians 2:10
Press your pen to the paper and your passions to the Cross and let Him live in and through you.
Do not let doubt run you dry. You have been chosen for a perfect plan. I believe this.
In Him,
September
Jamie S. Harper says
June 4, 2015 at 7:32 amThank you for this reminder, September. I so needed to think on this today, because I have been thinking some of those very things. Thank you.
septemberanne says
June 16, 2015 at 5:53 pmThank you Jamie. Your words always speak truth. May the enemy of doubt steer clear of our pens. Words matter. hugs.
Sarah Wesgate says
June 4, 2015 at 9:19 amSeptember – this is so beautifully and authentically written. Thank you for speaking into my heart and following God’s calling on your life even when the delete key seems so much more appealing! I get it. I so, so get it.
“Remember the truth about His calling on your life. It will not be easy.”
I need this posted in my work space! And so many truths written on my heart. Thank you for not giving in to doubt, fear and complacency. I would be missing something if you had.
You are a gift to me!
septemberanne says
June 16, 2015 at 5:53 pmOh my Sarah! YOU always bless me with your affirmation and encouragement. I am thankful I could give back a little word power and encouragement to you.
Much love!
Lynn D. Morrissey says
June 4, 2015 at 9:25 amSeptember! (Love that name!) Thank you for this wonderful, Spirit-led, and encouraging post. Your quote, alone, is worth the price of admission. 🙂 What is there about writing, in particular, that often makes us want to run for cover or pull the covers up over our head and go back to sleep?! Thank you for doing what you do and for instilling life and courage in others. Your words count and so do ours, when they are written because He bids us write. Can we do anything else but obey? I wanted to share a post of mine with you, too, because there will be times when we just need to encourage each other. Sometimes when one is up, the other is down, so we need to be ready to speak a word in season to those in need. I needed to read *your* words today. Thank you so much.
http://jenniferdukeslee.com/featured-tellhisstory-writer-lynn-d-morrissey-and-a-book-giveaway/
Love
Lynn
septemberanne says
June 16, 2015 at 5:52 pmBlessings! Thank you for commenting here. We always love our friends at Allume.
Perhaps we will meet one day.
Caryn Jenkins Christensen says
June 4, 2015 at 10:33 amOh my September. The Master Archer shot his arrow straight through to my heart with your words, confirming once again, to obey His calling ~ despite my fears, my doubts or my thoughts to take an easier path. Such a timely post for me. Thank you friend.
septemberanne says
June 16, 2015 at 5:51 pmSweet Caryn,
Thinking of you this week. Hugs my friend. You’re words encouraged me and confirmed that the writing for one another is as important as a personal note. We just never know who, what, where, why or when our words will be used. Casting away our fears together.
Hugs.